It has been one of those weeks! I am emotionally spent, worn out and ready to move on. One thing I have noticed as I grow older is that all this upheaval is hard to recuperate from. I know everyone has these days (weeks) where their best laid intentions tank and go right down the drain. I try not to have many of them, but when I do – WHEW! Anyway, I am usually struck dumb for about a day and then I can pick up and move forward again.
The first crisis this week was that my three grandchildren who where living here in Pensacola, Florida decided they wanted to stay in Texas with their father, instead of their mother, our daughter. They have been visiting their Dad for the summer. They are old enough to make these decisions on their own now, so one must honor their wishes. I will miss all three of them. We always lived far apart before so this was a rare treat to have them so close. It is all about what is best for the children in the end. They grew up in Texas so I completely understand their desire to remain there.
As a result, our daughter will move back home and regroup her life for awhile. There is nothing wrong with that decision, and I look forward to the time we will spend together. I am just glad that we can be there to help her. Everyone needs a leg up sometimes. Divorce is hard no matter who goes through it.
We also heard from our oldest daughter and other two grandchildren this week. She just returned from a tour in Okinawa and went back to Hill AFB, in Utah. She works for the Air Force as a civilian employee and had the privilege of living on Okinawa for about a year and a half. Her Thai mother has been living with her due to ill health. This was the next upset – the Thai mother has gallbladder cancer. She has excellent care so we must wait and see what happens next. More hard times are ahead for the two oldest daughters who must cope with the issues of their aging mother. I just ache for them.
Yesterday, the crew came and yanked out all the overgrown bushes in our front yard. This included the two River Birch that had web worms infesting them. I have worked for two days now, moving rocks and plants. Tomorrow I will buy a few new bushes (something small and not 8 of them in one flower bed) and get them set so they have time to root before the colder temperatures creep in by November. The contractor to put sprinklers in our yard will come and give us a bid this weekend. He will be able to plant the two crepe myrtle trees and the two Japanese maples I want out front. That will be a relief.
Our third oldest daughter (my eldest daughter) has her 36th birthday today. I looked back and remembered the day she was born. She is a beautiful and wise woman now. I am proud to be her mother. It seems like just yesterday she was born…
That was my week… highs, lows, ups, and downs. It is what it is. I simply pick up and move forward. I think I will indulge in a couple glasses of wine this evening! After all, I think I earned it.
Thanks for listening,