Spice – The Tiny Dog Who Stole Our Hearts

Spice, Colorado 2017

It is with sad and heavy hearts Ron, and I must share that our beloved Spice left this world Wednesday night. Spice was Ron’s dog mainly, and along with her sister, Sugar, nursed Ron through bladder and prostate cancer. She was loyal and loving and will live in our hearts forever. Our lives were better because of her sweet soul. 

When Ron found her in her crate that morning, her tag had become lodged in the metal grate of the door. It appeared she couldn’t get it loose. She was diagnosed with a collapsed trachea many years ago and at 13 ½ years old, she had been having more problems. In dog years she was 91, spunky, yet frail. I can only hope and pray that her passing did not allow her to suffer.

Both dogs had been crate-trained for ‘sleeping only’ since they were born in Montana. For such an odd thing to occur breaks our hearts. Her sister, Sugar is lost without her. The dogs had only been separated twice for overnight stays at the vet. Sugar suffers from diabetes and is frail too. The first thing I did was take Sugar’s collar and tag off.


Sugar & Spice 2011, Montana

Our pain is inconsolable. We got these two magnificent girls in 2004 when they were 4 months old. Spice was the runt of the litter, and sugar was a roly-poly fluff ball. My husband had only months before undergone radical surgery for bladder and prostate cancer. He spent the days alone while I worked many long hours as a bookkeeper/estate paralegal. I knew the two dogs would require him to get up out of his chair and give him something to care for. It worked. The life came back into his eyes, and he was ready to experience life again.

How do you thank two little souls for giving you the most precious things in life: loyalty, unconditional love, and kindness? From the day we got them in May 2004, they have filled our lives with joy.


Sugar, Ron, and Spice, Florida 2015

I have struggled with the writing of The Meadow Fairy and wasn’t sure why. I am an empathic writer, and there has been so much unrest in the world. These things affect me deeply. It seemed that certain things had to happen in the universe and in my life in order for me to add them into Abby’s new story. I don’t question how or why this happens any longer. I just wait, and then, I write.

Yesterday, I knew that the only way I could pay tribute to our beloved girls was to write them into the story so they could remain immortal on paper. In this way, their personalities will shine and spread love and joy to others.

Spice’s ashes will come back to us so that we still have a bit of her with us. Her spirit has joined the collective, and I know we will see her again, in another place, and time.

Love,

Ron and Colleen


108 thoughts on “Spice – The Tiny Dog Who Stole Our Hearts

  1. I am so sorry to hear about Spice and your own state of mind Colleen. My thoughts are also with the twin who bears the loss silently…I know you must be seeing it in her eyes… wish she could find some solace as we do with words…hollow though they may seem! Sugar and spice both are so much a part of our lives, both are needed…hugs dear friend.

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  2. Oh, Colleen, I know how loved the two sweethearts and I always loved your posts about them. I am so sorry also for sweet sugar. I know there is nothing that can be done to take that pain. I wish I could simply embrace you and Ron and hope you are feeling it. Lots of love to both of you 💖💖

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  3. My heart breaks for you both. Poor Sugar is bound to be heartbroken. I feel your pain, I’ve been there. One of mine is getting older and the very thought of losing her brings tears to my eyes. You wrote a beautiful tribute for your beautiful Spice xx

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  4. I’m so sorry, Colleen. I know how much losing a much-loved pet hurts. Her sister must be missing her, too, as well as you and Ron. Lovely idea to incoporate her in your next story. Sending virtual hugs.

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  5. I am so sorry for your loss, Colleen. I really can feel your pain since we had to say good-by to our feisty lady ten days ago – she was 17 and also frail. It is never easy – they are your family, and they give you unconditional love. What a lovely memorial – it made me cry all over again. Please accept my deepest sympathy.

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  6. I am so sad for you both and Sugar for she will miss her as much as you..But I am sure now Spice has passed over that rainbow bridge and is whole again..no pain. Not much consolation for you as pets are an intricate part of our families and we owe them so much for their unfailing love and loyalty. My thoughts are with you at this sad time..Much love ❤

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  7. A beautiful tribute! So sorry about your loss. Pets leave pawprints on our hearts that last forever! Give yourselves time to grieve, there is nothing like the special love of a dog.
    I feel sorry for Sugar too. I know how lonely our dog was when her companion died. She would cry if we left the house. It was heartbreaking to hear her.
    Sending my thoughts and hugs!

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  8. Colleen, I am so sorry for your loss. You include Spice and Sugar often in your posts and I have felt how inseparable they are to your and Ron’s life. Writing them into your book is a beautiful living tribute. ❤

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    • Thank you, Viva. This has been a difficult time. We are all having a hard time coping with the loss of Spice. Sugar is despondent and not eating much. That tears at my heart too. The story needs them and it feels so right. ❤

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  9. Reblogged this on Thoughts by Mello-Elo and commented:
    I am so sorry for your loss, Colleen. So many happy memories of such a wonderful member of your family will always remain once the pain goes away. Sending you the warmest hugs and wish I could give you one in person. I will look forward to reading about Spice (and of course Sugar) in your next book. What a beautiful way to immortalise them. 💗💗

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      • I was worried about Crystal when I lost Aspen 2 years ago. She grieved for a while, but gradually she picked back up. She gets as much quality time as I can give her, working. I think that helped. (But I’m sure Sugar is being lavished with love.)

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        • Yes. She had a totally different personality. Spice was always engaging and active. Sugar is laid back (not a cuddler). At over 13 years old and suffering from diabetes (2 shots a day) all we can do is love her. Thanks for being here, Teagan. It means much. ❤

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  10. Oh Colleen, my heart is with you and Ron and Sugar. I know that inconsolable isn’t even enough to express what you’re feeling. When my first cat died ~ my baby ~ I couldn’t eat, sleep, or work for more than a week. Then one day, as I lay on my bed sobbing, little Fei came to me. The gift box filled with tissue paper and ribbon that I had made for her was on the bed next to me. (She jumped into an opened gift box one Christmas and rolled around in it, kicking and biting the ribbon. So I dubbed that her box and kept it in the bedroom for her.) Suddenly the tissue paper rustled and the ribbon moved playfully. As I stared at the paper to make sure I’d actually seen what I thought I saw, the paper rustled and moved again. She came to tell me she was fine and happy and not to worry about her. Because she had died at the vet’s when I wasn’t there, my grief was impenetrable ~ until that moment. I hope your grief eases quickly as you feel your little one’s spirit joyful and at peace. Sending hugs and much love to all of you 💚💚💚

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    • Tina, thank you so much for sharing your love of Fei. My cat was Molly. I wasn’t with her at the vets office either. I connected with that little soul much the same as I did with Spice. Molly came to me one night too. I heard her purring and felt her cuddle up to me like she always did. I reached for her and said, “Molly, you’re back.” Then she was gone. That was when I knew she would live in my heart forever. My husband and Spice had a connection that was deep. He grieves terribly for her. Sugar has always been more my dog. She is fragile and now so sad. I can’t imagine her pain at the loss of her sister. All we can do is move forward and love Sugar for who she is. I appreciate your kindness and love. I feel it reach across the miles. ❤

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